Its alr happen since 2/4/2010 nearly going to 1 month soon.I do feel regret to what I had done, until now i still couldn't forgive myself for being so Emo and Hot temper until I totally mess up everything and totally lost everything. Its getting harder and harder for me. But this is what I cause,I need to accept the outcome. I am changing myself but I know its already too Late.

We were not match with each other, this is always mention by others and even including u. Our attitude and mindset were the biggest GAP between us. I am still confuse and blur with what is inside your mindset, But I do understand that ur fear to me and the stress that I give u is still there. Do I still have the chances to get back together with u? who knows? But I still choose to Stay and continue change myself, continue to take care of u until the End... even I know there will still be more and more block for me to face and maybe it wont help anything...I do still believe there is still a chances for me.


I am already lost my mind,I lost my confident,
I lost my soul, I lost myself again.
I am currently Jobless,Moneyless and even Meaningless.
At this moment I do feel I am the Loser.Its grey in my life now.
Maybe I am not suit to fall into someone.

If drunk can make me return to the pass.I really wish to get drunk every night.But the Fact is it can't...

24/4/2010 Marcus Ma Birthday Party @ Sunset Bistro

Happy 25th birthday Bro~!!!

A song that remind me something- 丁噹-猜不透

Jahmon Beer session with Beh on beginning of March

I had been very Emo lately,too many unhappy incident happen to me~
Feel very uneasy to stable down my own emotion.
Sad,Disappointment,Mad and Regret are always had in my mind.
I just wish everything will be back to Normal. How i wish there is a chances for me to turn back. So it wont happen, at least i still can secure the only thing that very important for me~
but its already...

When will I gain my happiness back~?
who knows?
what will happen next?

After so many incident.
I just realize the important of all the mistake that i made.
What i can do is just take everything as my lesson,and leave everything natural and back to my own life...

Nothing to update recently,something good happen, something bad happening too.
Finally quit from OCBC,thanks Beh for the chances for me to gain so many experience in OCBC.

what i learn in OCBC:
1st the reality of human being,the cruel in a organization.
2nd the real face of human being when they are poor.
and other.

What I feel is the most memorable to me working in OCBC is knowing a smart and attractive lady in another dept. Her advise and her opinion is the most important knowledge that i learn.

Thanks for the Mini Farewell Party~